Ticket to ride - Additional

[Edit: I don't know why this never got posted. It's now January 2012 so with no reason no to, I will now post this. Nothing has been changed since I wrote it in September]
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[Additional added after posting]
Someone commented about the happiness of this. Reading back through it, it struck me that it's not an emotion that leaps out from the page.

You should have seen me (I'll get *stared at* if I include them in this bit too), ear-to-ear grinning for hours. Our video chats can go on for over 8 hours, from the time they get home to when they go to bed, longer still at weekends. We don't sit there talking all that time, Christ, but we have the video connected so that we can see each other and talk if one of us has something to say. It's the best thing we have whilst we're 4000 miles apart and we try and make the most of it. As they keep telling me, they ignore me when I'm there so it's no different...

But back to the point (something else they tell me often is that I ramble on a lot) and the point being that for the first time in three weeks I was very very happy. We all were.
But if it doesn't show here it's only because of the mammoth task I have to finish sorting everything out. I'm not just going for a few weeks again, I'm going for good, hopefully. There's a lot left to do. But it's in hand, it's progressing slowly and once it's done then I'll relax and at that point the butterflies will start their flapping in my stomach and the grinning will resume.

In the back of my mind is the whole leaving "thing" and that seems to keep the ecstatic running around shrieking in glee in check. Again, I'll write more about that at a later date. But know this (this to Frank et al too), I have no doubts that I want to be there with them, no doubts about how I feel about them, no doubts about who they are and no doubts about spending my life with them.

Am I happy? Hell yes, very much so.